Megan, 24, found love with 20 year old Wes Nelson after entering the ITV2 match-making show – but before she went on Love Island, Megan admitted she had felt the “lowest she’d ever felt” and “had suicidal thoughts”.
The reality star opened up in a bid to raise awareness and help others to speak out in times of need, in a lengthy statement posted to her Instagram page.
“I’ve put writing this off all day as depression and anxiety are still pretty raw for me and part of who I am,” she wrote to her 1.8 million followers. “Mental health issues are more common than ever especially with the increased use of social media and the resulting feelings of inadequacy.
“A lot of People cant get their heads around why if I was so depressed and suffering from anxiety I would go on a reality show. For me it’s was a make or brake moment. Id suffered on and off with mental health problems since my teens.
“At the end of 2017/early 2018 was probably the lowest I’d ever felt. There were a few times that I just didn’t want to wake up, I had suicidal thoughts, and had even gone to my mum sobbing about what I should do as I didn’t want to be alive anymore.
“My way of coping was putting on a persona for social media, partying, earning money and buying half of Harrods! None of it helped, maybe for 5 mins it distracted me from what was going on inside but as soon as I was back in my flat on my own the negative thoughts and emotions would return.”
Megan then revealed that it was an opportunity such as Love Island which helped her step away from the negative thoughts in her mind, and was almost like a “rehab” treatment for her.
“I did some therapy and that helped me by providing techniques for coping in moments of crisis. I’m so lucky that the Love Island opportunity arrived when it did.
“I didn’t realise at the time what the impact of being away from it all in the villa would have on my mental state. I thought it would make me famous and I would earn lots of money and that would bring me happiness but actually it was more like a rehab retreat for me stripping everything back and forcing me to see what was most important in my life.
“Meeting people and experiencing them loving me not for the persona I was presenting online gave me strength and made me realise that I need to love myself more.”
Megan went on to say that although she is “far from fixed”, that speaking to helped her to become “stronger”, adding: “I make a commitment to myself to continue that process.”
Megan finished her incredibly inspirational post by adding: “How are you? It’s amazing how powerful these three little words can be.
“Not only letting someone know you care, but also in making them ask themselves that very question and in doing so making them realise that maybe they need some help.”
If you have been affected by this story, you can call the Samaritans on 116 123 or visit www.samaritans.org.